a lion among ladies
Nov. 11th, 2021 10:11 pm[ Dorothea doesn't exactly love spending time in the cathedral of Garreg Mach's campus, as stunning as the stained glass windows and flying buttresses are to behold. She hasn't put stock in the Seirosi faith since she was six years old.
In spite of that, she can still be seen there often in the days following the mission to quell the Western Church's rebellion in Gaspard territory, her hand rubbing circles in Ashe's back. She understands what it feels like to lose a parent, though she doesn't speak of it; instead, she only listens as he very gradually works his way through the shock and pain. Sometimes the only comfort is commiseration.
It's draining, though. She has to step back eventually, to try and shake off the old familiar feelings that watching another orphan in mourning dredges up in her.
Standing on the bridge that leads to the cathedral, she inhales the fresh mountain air and releases a sigh as she looks out over the scenery. A flash of blue in her peripheral vision catches her attention, though, and she's back on stage, turning to face her new house leader. ]
On your way to pray?
In spite of that, she can still be seen there often in the days following the mission to quell the Western Church's rebellion in Gaspard territory, her hand rubbing circles in Ashe's back. She understands what it feels like to lose a parent, though she doesn't speak of it; instead, she only listens as he very gradually works his way through the shock and pain. Sometimes the only comfort is commiseration.
It's draining, though. She has to step back eventually, to try and shake off the old familiar feelings that watching another orphan in mourning dredges up in her.
Standing on the bridge that leads to the cathedral, she inhales the fresh mountain air and releases a sigh as she looks out over the scenery. A flash of blue in her peripheral vision catches her attention, though, and she's back on stage, turning to face her new house leader. ]
On your way to pray?
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Date: 2022-07-03 11:49 pm (UTC)He has long ago stopped worrying about safety.
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Date: 2022-07-04 12:22 am (UTC)"You're amazing," she murmurs, reaching to pull the covers over them. It's been an excruciatingly long day, and in the warm post-coital haze, Dorothea finds she can barely keep her eyes open.
Which is probably why she sleeps like a rock through the night once she falls asleep cuddled up in Dimitri's arms. The morning light in her eyes is what wakes her, and while she'd been glad to throw caution to the wind last night, it only makes things that much more urgent now.
"Dima, wake up," she whispers urgently, bolting upright and hopping out of bed. "We overslept!" And even though they don't have class today, it isn't as if they can spend the whole day locked up in her room without anyone taking notice. Her skin still feels sticky with dried sweat and... other bodily fluids, but she begins to get dressed, picking each garment up off the floor and shaking it out before hurriedly tugging them on.
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Date: 2022-07-04 03:25 am (UTC)If nothing else, he needs to go have a bath.
"If we hurry, maybe we can beat everyone else. They're probably still asleep..." He grimaces, "I'm sorry, Dorothea - I didn't mean for this to happen..."
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Date: 2022-07-04 01:11 pm (UTC)"Don't blame yourself," she says, shimmying into her skirt and starting on the buttons of her jacket. "We obviously needed the sleep, and it's still early. The bells haven't even rung for breakfast yet." Once she's fully dressed, she nods and goes to the door, looking back at him as she grasps the handle. "All right, I'm going to check and make sure the coast is clear."
Taking a deep breath and exhaling slowly to calm herself, Dorothea opens her door to peek out into the courtyard and--
Yelps in alarm, jumping back with her hands flying up into an instinctively defensive position for a moment, which allows the door to swing farther open than she'd intended. Gilbert is standing at the threshold, fist raised in preparation to rap on the door. Though someone who knows that Dorothea grew up being beaten by old noblemen could understand her fearful reaction, Gilbert just looks surprised, as does Seteth, standing a few paces behind him. Manuela is there as well, looking more concerned than anything.
Recovering quickly, Dorothea rushes to grab the door again, closing it until the opening is only wide enough to show her face, as she had originally intended.
"How can I help you all this lovely morning?" she asks, completely nonchalant. Gilbert crosses his arms, looking entirely unamused.
"I came to inquire as to his Highness' whereabouts. We have urgent business with him."
"Oh? Well, I'll be sure to tell him the--"
"Do not waste my time, young lady," Gilbert interrupts, his expression darkening. "This is the last place on the monastery grounds we thought to check, so certain were we that his Highness would not debase himself by--"
"Miss Dorothea," Seteth steps in, sensing that Gilbert's words are only going to become angrier going forward, "we saw Prince Dimitri in the room behind you when the door swung open."
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Date: 2022-07-04 05:39 pm (UTC)"I'm here. You don't need to keep looking any longer," he comments with a slow intake of breath, lips pressed together, "I - I was most certainly not debasing myself in any way-"
That's said with a meaningful glance at Gilbert, anger flashing behind his eyes.
"...I was spending time with my fiance after the arduous day we had yesterday. I - we - lost track of time and were so exhausted that we simply fell asleep on top of the bedclothes together and didn't wake up until this morning. You needn't cast aspersions on a woman who is very dear to me."
It's a terrible lie, but one that will hopefully help everyone save face. Even with the fiance bombshell thrown in for good measure.
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Date: 2022-07-04 11:22 pm (UTC)The next bit is significantly more surprising, however. It's lucky for them that she's a consummate actress, able to keep her expression even. His fiancée? Yes, of course this isn't the first she's heard of it, thank you kindly. The reactions of the gathered faculty and staff vary, however, from Manuela's delighted shock to Seteth's neutral surprise to Gilbert's thinly-veiled anger.
"You intend to marry this girl, Your Highness? A commoner with no crest?" It seems that he's forgotten their indiscretion for the moment, for which she's thankful. "Does Rodrigue know of this? Have you discussed it with anyone? Do you have any idea how this will affect the Kingdom?"
"Now you just hold your horses a minute," Manuela interjects heatedly, hands planted on her hips. "Don't you act so high and mighty about this. What exactly are you trying to say, here? Dorothea is an amazing young woman! You think you're too good to have someone like her as your queen? And besides, I thought you gave up your connection to the Kingdom ages ago? Why make such a fuss about it now?"
"Please, everyone, restrain yourselves! This is getting well out of hand," Seteth says, finally deciding to bring order to the growing chaos at Dorothea's door. "Prince Dimitri, Dorothea--I trust you are both aware that this sort of fraternization is strictly prohibited, even if the two of you are engaged to be married. That is an issue that we can revisit at a later time, however; the reason we were trying to find Prince Dimitri remains of far greater urgency."
Gilbert crosses his arms, clearly not satisfied at being unable to answer Manuela's rebukes, but he nods once.
"Your Highness, this matter is best not discussed in... such a venue. Make yourself presentable and meet us in the Archbishop's audience chamber. Her attendance is not required," he adds, gesturing to Dorothea.
"Hey! Where he goes, I go," she counters. "If it's important to him, it's important to me."
Seteth pinches the bridge of his nose but doesn't seem prepared to press the issue.
"Both of you should present yourselves. See that you do not keep Her Holiness waiting."
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Date: 2022-07-06 03:44 pm (UTC)"Dorothea is quite correct; she deserves to understand what's happening with me. Especially since I intend for us to be bound for the rest of our lives."
That last is a rebuke aimed at Gilbert, clearly.
"But I'll clean myself and then we'll be happy to attend to the Archbishop."
With that he gives a slight bow and before he can let himself think twice, he heads off to get cleaned up, shooting a slightly apologetic look at Dorothea. After that, it's a whirlwind of activity and hastily splashing water on himself and trying ot make sure he's semi-presentable before they're both standing in the audience chamber. What on Earth is going on? He shoots Dorothea a look he hopes is reassuring.
They'll get through this.
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Date: 2022-07-07 08:35 pm (UTC)"Yes, if you'll excuse me," she says, "I need to make myself presentable."
She can tell without it needing to be said that each of the assembled faculty and staff will want to have words with her for various reasons, but she'll deal with that eventuality when it comes. They disperse, and she takes a fresh set of clothing with her to the bathhouse to wash off as expediently as possible, dressing and leaving last night's garments to be laundered before rushing to the audience chamber. She doesn't even bother with her hat, since she doubts that Rhea would appreciate headwear in her holiest of presences.
Dorothea wishes she could reach out for Dimitri's hand as they stand before the archbishop, but Seteth and Gilbert are there, watching them both like hawks. Byleth, at least, is present as a sympathetic figure. Rhea, meanwhile, is a tall, imposing presence, and frankly, Dorothea finds her unsettling.
"I have just received word from Duke Fraldarius of a situation most dire that is currently unfolding in Fhirdiad," Rhea begins without preamble, though she does briefly level her eyes at dorothea in a way that suggests mild displeasure at her presence. No matter, she isn't leaving without being forcefully ejected.
"Prince Dimitri, it seems as though your uncle, Rufus, has declared war on house Fraldarius and seized the capital. He has penned a manifesto claiming that House Fraldarius means to install you as a puppet, and is calling on the western lords to come to his aid.
"In light of these events, I am discharging you from your duties as house leader, that you might go to the aid of the people of Fhirdiad. Know that we of the Church of Seiros do not take this matter lightly."
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Date: 2022-07-07 09:24 pm (UTC)"...Lady Rhea. You and the church have always been strong supporters of Faerghus. Thank you for informing me - I will of course leave immediately to deal with this threat to the peace of Fhirdiad and of Fodlan. And... I suppose I shall be taking much of my class with me. As much as it pains me to have to cut their school year short."
He glances at Dorothea and then back to Rhea.
"Whatever help you can grant us would, of course, be welcomed. The last thing my people need is a period of conflict and pain."
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Date: 2022-07-09 04:21 am (UTC)"Besides the knights, the Iron Company and I will be coming as well," Byleth adds, stepping forward. "I'm behind you all the way, Dimitri."
Rhea nods her assent, gesturing to Byleth in that magnanimous way of hers.
"Yes, Jeralt's mercenaries will be a great boon to you in this campaign. Know that the Church prays for your success. We can no longer abide the Regent's impious rule; how can one such as he hope to rule justly over the people when he does not carry the blessing of the Goddess?"
Beside him, Dorothea presses her lips thin but holds her tongue. This isn't the time or place for a debate.
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Date: 2022-07-09 11:52 pm (UTC)"If... that is all, I would like to make my preparations to depart as soon as possible and let my classmates know what's to be done," he continues after a moment. He sees no reason to draw this out longer than needed.
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Date: 2022-07-10 09:51 pm (UTC)Rhea does not so much as glance at her, but the message is clear all the same. Dorothea can feel the color rising to her face, but she doesn't dare speak or even move, lest she speak out against the archbishop in her very audience chamber. From where she stands, Byleth's eyes narrow marginally at Rhea, her head canting slightly as if some unseen figure is whispering into her ear.
"You are dismissed. I have sent Gilbert to gather your classmates so that you might hold a briefing with them before you prepare for your departure. May you go with the blessings of the Goddess."
It's rude, she knows, to turn and leave without bowing, but Rhea has made her opinions perfectly clear. Why is everyone against them? Whether it's because of her childhood of poverty, her lack of a crest, or her irreligiosity born from years of abuse without the church or their precious goddess so much as lifting a finger to help her, every aspect of her personhood seems to be unacceptable in the eyes of the people in power around them. Has she no redeeming qualities? She wants to cry, but she keeps a neutral face for the moment, jaw clenched as she walks at a pace just short of a jog the moment she exits the audience chamber.
She should wait for Dimitri, but she doesn't. She has to pack her things, at least enough to get her through this trip to Fhirdiad. Will they even be coming back to the Academy after that? Part of her never wants to set foot in Garreg Mach again. No one here will miss her anyway, it seems, but the fact of the matter is that there will be no escaping the church and all its judgment once she and Dimitri are married (if the church even allows him to marry a crestless libertine peasant like her). Faerghus is called the Holy Kingdom for a reason, after all.
Her door shuts behind her, just shy of a slam. The room still smells of their coupling the night before, so she throws her windows open to let some fresh air in while she packs. There's no way that Seteth or Gilbert believed Dimitri's lie about the two of them simply having fallen asleep together, but there's no time for the other shoe to drop. They're leaving, likely to never return, so whatever punishment they might have planned is effectively moot. Small favors.
They'll have to travel light, and it will be cold in Faerghus, so she exchanges her uniform for the sturdiest, warmest garments she has and hopes they will be enough to shield her from the cold. Hot tears run down her cheeks as she hastily stuffs the one travel bag she'll allow herself, unwilling to be a burden on her classmates. This is going to be a hard trip.
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Date: 2022-07-12 07:21 pm (UTC)He's relieved when they all indicate that they'll stand by him, through thick and thin.
It's then that he also announces his intention to marry. Possibly sooner rather than later. The reaction is a bit mixed. Felix is skeptical. Sylvain keeps his mouth shut. Ingrid seems happy for him - so do Annette and Mercedes. Dedue is Dedue. Ashe is supportive, of course. They're his friends - not just subjects or pieces on a playing board. And he's grateful to have them.
After that he has to pack what he can. Nothing too heavy or that will take too long. Clothing, his armor, his weapons, the few books that he'd like to hang onto. He's going to miss the Academy; it's been a place for him to feel... almost safe at times. It's where he met Dorothea. And once that's done, he has to go find her - no matter what Gilbert might say.
"Dorothea?"
Is she still in her room? Or maybe out in the courtyard with the others?
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Date: 2022-07-14 04:11 am (UTC)Dabbing at her face to make sure it's dry, she opens the door for Dimitri and moves to embrace him.
"I haven't kept you waiting, have I? I'm sorry, darling. I'm ready to go now."
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Date: 2022-07-14 11:16 pm (UTC)The day has only just begun but he still feels as if he wants to collapse. There's so much happening all at once - but he has to keep moving, doesn't he? He wraps his arms around her and gives her a tight hug.
"We're all getting ready to leave. I think it'll be another hour or two before we really start, but... we're gathering and making ready to go. It's going to be a long trip and I don't know when we'll be back. If we ever will be."
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Date: 2022-07-15 02:30 am (UTC)Sighing once, she lifts her head to kiss him.
"Ah, but since there's a little time before we go, I'd like to say goodbye to Manuela. Who knows if I'll get a chance to see her again any time soon. I'm leaving her all the things I can't carry away from here myself. I know they'll all fit on a carriage back to Enbarr."
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Date: 2022-07-15 07:09 pm (UTC)He pauses again.
"This is going to be hard, Dorothea. I won't lie to you about that. And I would love to have you with me at my side throughout it. But... if you don't want to fight this war, I'll understand. I don't want want to force you into such peril."
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Date: 2022-07-15 07:35 pm (UTC)"No! Thats not going to happen! I won't be left behind. I won't let you walk into danger without me there to cover you. What has all this training been for if not that?" she asks. "You're right--I hate fighting. I can't stand violence. But how could I be worthy of you or your people if I don't fight for them in their hour of need?"
She doesn't point out that this might also be her only chance to prove to everyone that her love for Dimitri is sincere. If she were only after his money or his power, would she put her life on the line for his sake? She only hopes it will be enough.
"I'm going to go see Manuela, but it won't take long. I'll be down at the stables by the time everyone is ready to go."
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Date: 2022-07-16 01:17 am (UTC)He gives her another tight squeeze.
"I'll see you soon, my love."
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Date: 2022-07-16 12:51 pm (UTC)Their conversation isn't as long as she wishes it could be, and they embrace tearfully before Dorothea bids her farewell. She's even lucky enough to find her favorite of the monastery's stray cats to cuddle before their departure, and she carries it with her down to the stables where the others are congregating to finalize their preparations to leave. It's a busy scene, if a somber one--they are riding to war, after all, and there is no telling which among them will survive the battles to come.
Dorothea stays out of the way, having no horse of her own. Professor Byleth passes by briefly to murmur a few words of encouragement and press a levin sword into her hands. After that, all that's left is for her to wait until it's time to move out.
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Date: 2022-07-16 11:02 pm (UTC)"How are you feeling? We can find a horse for you - or there'll be a carriage. What would you prefer?"
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Date: 2022-07-16 11:26 pm (UTC)"I'm all right. Nervous, but that's to be expected. As much as you know I'd love to be beside you the entire way, I still can't ride a horse well enough to make the trip. A carriage would be best--maybe Annie and Mercie would ride with me. And... would you hate it if I brought Spoonie? I know it'll be a bit of a hassle to travel with her, but I'd hate to leave her behind."
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Date: 2022-07-17 06:06 pm (UTC)"As for Spoonie... we should be able to manage with her. It's just going to be a very long trip, so you'll have to keep a close eye on her."
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Date: 2022-07-21 01:41 am (UTC)Giving Dimitri one quick peck on the lips, Dorothea parts ways with him to go find Annette and Mercedes. Ashe and Dedue are helping the girls load their luggage onto the carriage, but they all pause to greet her when she arrives. Annette embraces her enthusiastically, while Mercedes offers a warm (if more measured) clasp of the hand. Ashe's face turns pink, and Dedue bows his head.
"His Highness told us that he's going to marry you?!" Annette says, her voice carrying a little farther than Dorothea would like through the bustle of preparations being finalized before their departure.
"Yes," Dorothea confirms, smiling sheepishly. "I love him more than I can really explain. That's why I'm coming with all of you to Fhirdiad--if the Kingdom is to be my home, then it only makes sense for me to fight for it."
The others surely see the sense in what she's said, or they see no point in arguing with her. She meets Dedue's eyes and wonders what he thinks of her--for all the time she's spent with Dimitri, Dedue has always kept his opinion of her and their relationship to himself. Does he think she's taking advantage of his liege? Does he believe she's helped him or hurt him?
There will be time to find out later. For now, everyone is being ushered into the carriage. The din of armored knights mounting their horses rings through the courtyard, and the caravan begins to move. Annette and Mercedes are cuddled up across from her, while Silver Spoon is content to curl in her lap. This is the start of her new life, and she's terrified. Everything is going to change, and she isn't sure if she'll be able to handle everything that's to come.
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Date: 2022-07-21 09:56 pm (UTC)Felix is less so.
"Are you honestly going to go through with it?" He asks him and Dimitri hesitates a moment before he nods firmly.
"I am. I love her, Felix. And that's not going to change."
Felix purses his lips. He has nothing else to say and Dimitri is glad for the silence that settles in as the they begin their ride. There will be time to talk later. By the time they stop to set up camp, he's tired - but he still needs to handle his horse and getting the camp set up and it's not until well past dinner time that he can finally retire to his tent.
He's sent a note for Dorothea, asking if she'd like to join him. If only for a little while.
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